It doesn't seem like I'm getting to the step mom part of this blog huh? I realized that today. I just keeping talking about the past and none of it has to do with being a step mama. Get out of the past Bri!
Here's the story of how Luis and I became friends to more than friends to being together to this very day. I still can't believe that it happened and how it happened but I'm glad it did. Let's start already! One day while planning my ex boyfriends birthday party (boyfriend at the time) I text Luis to ask if him he and Bellatrix were going to attend. Bellatrix was not responding and I needed to know a head count. I kept getting replies with "no's" and "......" and I know that "......." means that something is wrong. What if something had happened to Bellatrix or the baby? I called him immediately. He answered the phone crying! My heart stopped. Something horrible had happened! I asked him what had happened and he revealed to that he and Bellatrix had broken up. Poor guy! He was heartbroken! He had been chewed up and spit out! I told him that he would get better and find another girl and responded "but no one like her". She was even going to take the baby. I felt so bad for him. There must be something to make this guy feel better. Then it hit me! My very close guy friend had just broken up with his girlfriend! He was a mess to! Why not get them together for a game night? They could probably help each other out. Vent and stuff. Did guys do that? Well they were going to start! I would make them! So I arranged for a game night where we would all have to dance and make ourselves look like fools. It surely would make the two heartbroken guys laugh, and lets be truthful, I had been wanting to play the game for some time. I had also invited my cousin and my best friend to join in. The night ended up begin a success. I'm not sure if there was a lot of venting, but both guys ended up having fun. It felt good to make people feel better. So as the month passed we all would hang out. Mostly at my house (my mom was cool and dint mind my friends) and mostly playing video games. It was a lot of fun. My boyfriend at time was just becoming too much for me and time away from him made me feel better. As I type this I guess I needed my friends much more than I though they needed me. One day I was at home venting to my best friend about my relationship and I got a phone call. it was Luis. I answered it Luis had asked me what kind of Starbucks did I like. I said a White Chocolate Mocha. I asked him why and he said he was going to bring me one. I thought it was a little odd but hey maybe he's thanking me for being a good friend. My best friend on the other hand thought differently. "He likes you, no one brings a girl a Starbucks just because" he told me (my best friend was a guy). I told my him to shut his mouth, that Luis was probably still in love with Bellatrix and I didn't see us going past friendship. Oh boy did I eat my words. As the months passed Luis would start to come over just by himself and we would hang out and I got to know him. I knew I was doomed the day I caught myself looking in the mirror before he was coming over. What was I doing!?!?!?! I was in a 3 year relationship with someone and he was my friends ex boyfriend. You know the girl rule. You don't date your friends ex. You just don't! I had to drop whatever it it I was feeling and I tried just that, but I found myself thinking about him. I couldn't deny the fact
that I was getting a crush on this guy. Then there must have been crazy in the air because I ended up inviting him to Vegas with my best friend. I by then was tired of my relationship with my boyfriend and I needed to be away from him. I needed to have fun and laugh and just be me. So we all went. I declared myself single for that trip. I was over all the stress and sadness. I was in Vegas with my friends and I was going to have fun. I was 18 at the time so I couldn't drink, but I could shop and be a silly teenager. We all went to Circus Circus, my friend went gambling and since Luis and I went to that place where you can play those carnival games. Luis didn't win a single game. I however won quite I few. We were having fun and laughing. I couldn't remember having that much fun in a years. It was nice. He ended up kissing me that day. I didn't turn away. It was wrong but I melted. That kiss changed me forever. As the weekend passed we would kiss and hold hands and act like punk teenagers (which we were). I knew I had to break up with my boyfriend. That I didn't love him, that I stopped loving him over a year ago. It wasn't fair to him. I honestly didn't think what Luis and I had in Vegas was going to last. We were both lonely and used each other for comfort. When the trip ended we came home and he kissed me goodbye. I thought "well, it was nice while it lasted". I broke up with my boyfriend that very same day. I told him what had happened. That I was sorry but that I realized I didn't love him and our relationship had been a lie for quite some time. It heart my heart hurt him, but I couldn't go on pretending to be happy when I wasn't. It hurt too much. I was sad for a bit, but I expected that. What I didn't expect was Luis to be calling me, texting me, bringing me flowers. Was this guy for real? He couldn't have grown that much affection for me. Could he?Then at a group Disneyland trip he asked me to be his girlfriend in front of the fireworks and i accepted. I wasn't sure on if the relationship would last or if I was making a mistake, but honestly I didn't give a damn! I threw caution to the wind and almost 5 years later we are still together. He's my best friend. I love him.
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Wow wasn't that a story? Kinda long, I know. Next blog I decided will hopefully be the last of my little past stories and that will be Bellatrix's response to when she finds out Luis and I are dating. Thank you so much to everyone whose been reading! It means a lot to me! I'm going to find something to drink and call it a night
A Little Bit Extra:
I found this cute little quote on Pinterest. I just searched "living in the past quotes". If I did it right here's the link to it: http://www.pinterest.com/pin/318840848589982677/
Little Fact: I like listening to Ice Cube Radio on Pandora when I write on this blog. Something about the music makes my head nod and helps the words flow.
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